Tuesday, 15 March 2011

Crying over last night's pictures.

God, I have got massive. I really have. I've gained so much weight recently, I feel like I'm drowning in it. Fuck it all, I want it off. Fuck it all, I'm getting it off. I'm not going out, I'm not doing anything, I'm not even going to be on a CCTV lens until this is off.

Game on.


  1. just wanted to send some hugs. i know the feeling, feelings aren't facts though.

  2. This makes me so sad, I want to cry- because I know you don't believe me and I know how you're feeling and I know nothing makes any difference whatsoever, and I wish it was Wednesday again. Or that it was the summer and you were here and skin and bones didn't matter to either of us for at least a few days. xxxxxxxx

  3. No no. :(
    I know this feeling so well but losing weight wont accomplish anything worthwhile. you're never happier, you're never more content with life. Everything goes in to that dark depressive mist and the things that are important get replaced with numbers and with grams and lbs.
    Babe, there is literally NO need to lose any weight. There's no fucking fat on you.

    I love you.
    You know where i am...x

  4. Oh Condom.. I know this feeling too fucking well. This makes me sad because even the thought that someone as wonderfully lovely as you has to have these horrible thoughts in her head.. well, it's not fair. We know that it's a feeling, and feeling isn't fact etc.. But I was just saying this yesterday, why do these feelings seem SO real and they affect us this much if they are not true.

    It's these times when you must try to take a step outside of yourself, take some time, and remember that YOU are condom. And you are wonderful. Easier said than done, but it's worth a try. Because feeling like this isn't a nice feeling at all xxx