Sometimes I need to know that I matter. That my feelings matter. I'm so used to starving or throwing up any feeling I had that now I don't know what to do. I'm struggling. I need to know that somebody cares a little, enough, because right now I'm struggling to care about myself. And I can't handle being walked over, having my feelings discarded. I need somebody to notice me. I can't hold everything together and I can't take your shit. I just need a bit of reassurance right now. I need to know that my absence would be noted, besides what a disruption it might cause. That my presence is... I don't even know. I feel so pathetic for even needing validation, because this has come from such a small, insignificant thing; it's just the final straw, petty. Self-indulgent.
I feel so fucking ugly and disgusting. Not even just physically.