Wednesday, 6 July 2011


2 months without them and I come home and are a slave to them again, within a week? But whilst I'm steadily losing weight, I can't bring myself to care. It's better for my body than all the vom'? Better to lose steadily than to go up and down so drastically? I feel better in myself, more likely to go outside? Calmer Condron, ooft.

Ohhh, I need to stop rationalising what can't be rationalised.


  1. You're saying you feel more able to go outside because you're losing weight? :( this makes me sad. It'll be hard not to pounce on you in the train station on Tuesday. Cuddlessssssss xxxxx

  2. You better pounce on me, I can't even tell you how excited I am to see you. I'll be alright, I always am :) Just needa get back on track and I feel nearer to that when I'm restricting that constant b/p-ing! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  3. Disordered speak is rather strong at the minute. One illness fighting against the other. 'it's better if I'm restricting because I'm not vom'ing this time and then it'll be 'it's better when I'm vom'ing because I am still eating' next time. Nobody wins in this situation. Remember that. It's a lose/lose. Pardon the pun!